HOw do you deal with fear?
I didn't know what is it like to fear.....I mean asides the obvious, like when your mom chase you around the house with a rotan.....that was not fear. That was just pure intimidation........you know how to deal with it. YOu just need to run faster than your mom.... (sorry Ma, its just an anecdote)
When I crash my car, I don't think I experience "fear" . I was just confused and disorientated. If I remembered correctly, i didn't even cry.......[i even ask to doc to let me have a look at the hook needle thingy they use to stitch my scalp].
But when I hear the screeching sound of tyres.......I'm sorta scared......
And tonight....
when I drove through the rain....pelting rain......from Glenmarie to NKVE.....
I was DAMN SCARED......so much so that I shall classify it as FEAR...
I'm feel so lost and helpless....
First of all, I can't see what's infront of me.......
And it didn't help that I can feel water gushing underneath the car.....like I'm driving through a current
The drive probably took like 30 mins before I reached Bandar Utama Centerpoint (the place where I took refuge).
I felt so helpless that I'm not sure if I want to stop at the side and cry....or to drive on.
Given that I'm on the highway, and most of the emergency lanes are flooded, stopping at the side and cry is not a good idea.
But crying and driving in the rain, is even more stupid.........
So the thing to do (my humble advice, tried, tested and proven to be effective - today), you blast your radio, sang along to Mariah Carey/Leona Lewis/Taylor Swift etc........and continue to drive.
Well I got through it, reached Centerpoint, parked and took lots of deep breath......decided to let some of my friends know of my adventure, that I went through it alive (I seriously thought I'll be "paralysed" with fear, but Thank God...I did not).
A plate of Aglio Olio with Prawns @ PizzaUno soothe the nerves......
Washed down with a cup of hot Earl Grey.......
Look out the window and saw that the rain had since died.....
well...time to go home, take a hot shower......and crawl under the comforter.....coz I need some real comforting (it rhymes...:P)
nite peeps! i need to have some sweet dreams........
