As I grow, I seems to have this problem of remembering what I’ve dreamed the night before. All I have, was a feeling when I woke up. I can wake up feeling like I can conquer the world, and I can wake up feeling lost and sad, sometimes I’m scared….well, the latter is rare, but it happens.
I woke up at 7.30am this morning. A Saturday morning, mainly because I’m crying and I don’t know why. There’s this immense sadness in my heart…that I can’t explain. I just need to get up from the bed and write this down, because the sadnesss is just too much. I don’t know if I can sleep it out….but I supposed I’ll feel better after I write it down, or tell someone about it. Its a bummer that I’m so faraway from the Musketeers, else…I could have easily call up one of them to talk about this, but its freaking 4am in Malaysia…..don’t think calling anyone of them will be a great idea.
Plus, I’m sure I’ll be alright after I have a nice breakfast.
I’m just puzzled. What makes this time different from the rest? Well, the weird thing is….when I woke up, there’s this tune that stays in my head. Seriously….I’m not joking. “A little kindness in the night….bla bla…oooh ..bla bl abla”
And I couldn’t quite put it down what’s the name of the song. Its some oldies….and that’s another reason why I get myself out of bed, and hop onto the computer. Nothing that Google can’t find, rite? While i have no idea how to search a “tune” using Google, its a good thing that I can put the tune to some lyrics…..and its Ocean Deep, by Cliff Richards. Gosh…at any time, I’ll say that this is so lame……..but the song makes me feels better.
Honestly, I think I’m this close to being crazy. What’s happening to me? Why can’t I just remember what I dreamed of? That should give me some idea what happened?? I honestly don’t think what happened during the day would have impacted me that much. As usual, I’m busy at work….i have 10 thousand people asking me to finish this and that,and on top of that, and I decide to take time out to make this nice little scrapbook for one of the partners that’s leaving the firm (which is something that I really enjoyed, and had a really good time working wiht Elaine and Emma). Then we have office drinks, have a reasonably authentic chinese dinner (another reason to be happy!), talked about sushi night, came back home, baked 7 ramekins full of creme brulee….and slept! The day wasn’t bad at all….at any rate. I had worse. Why? why? why?
Anyway, Ocean Deep is a rather nice song….maybe I can get some sleep listening to it……
Wrong idea, its a nice song, but a sad one……..I should just wake up and clean the mess in the house.
Its a freaking Saturday…..I should be sleeping in and not waking up at 7.30am.
